Depression and getting dumped. Its Ah-Maz-Ing. Right when you think your getting everything back together with your life, ready to fix your relationship…your significant other gives up on you. Chooses the party life over you…chooses weed and drinking and shitty friends who are one day going to leave him behind…over you…The sweet texts stop. What once was a cozy bed is now cold and lonely…the room feels bigger…darker…and is no longer a safe place…its a place of haunted memories…loneliness…And now I get it. I understand what I have done to someone else. I felt bad for it then and I feel worse for it now. So to Paul, I’m sorry. I did a horrible thing to you, and I wouldnt wish this pain on anyone…I thought this was forever…I really did..and it wasn’t because he is still a stupid child…and Im a no-fun adult…One day I will come back from this..One day this pain wont hurt…but this day will not be today or tomorrow and probably not next week…Eventually I will heal..and maybe one day he will come back…but I feel like I will be alone for the rest of my days…He doesn’t love me..Hes going to shut me out of his life permanently…he’s forever gone..